DaY 3...

He hasn't made paramdam yet. On our last conversation, i remember him saying, amidst my nag uumapaw na galit (which is expressed by a deafening silence), dat someday maiintindihan ko din daw sha (as to why two-timer sya) and dat someday ym gonna want to talk to him again, see him again. Ayoko na. Dis is our chance to make things right. It's better na rin to end things as early as now to avoid more heartache. But still, gusto ko p rin sha magparamdam. I dunno if it's for ego/pride purposes or what. Bsta gusto ko naman ma feel na nde nman nya ko nakalimutan just like that. DAhil ako up to now, I still miss him most of the time.

Btw, ym getting better. MEdyo ok na nga ako eh. Kanina when we went to the adoration chapel, sbi ko kay Lord, "Lord, I will not cry today." And I haven't shed a tear yet. Sana magtuloy tuloy na. I can't wait for the day na magigising na lang ako na nde ko na sha naiisip. NA nde ko na check fne ko if he has texted/called already.

05/19, 7:50 p.m.